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Wednesday, May 12, 2010

Scared S***less

It has only been days after the Philippine presidential elections and the winner is yet to be proclaimed. There's actually no need for a proclamation, it appears that the new president of the Philippines is no other than (drum roll please....) Noynoy Aquino.

It is rather disappointing to see the same family names, same people winning yet again.

The elections never mattered to me before. I hardly paid attention to the candidates because I was resolved to the idea that nothing will ever change. Regardless who the winner is, they will just be as bad as the last or maybe even worse. I grew up thinking that politicians only have self-serving interests in mind. Vote-buying was and still is prevalent everywhere, people approach you in the voting precincts with cash, groceries and a sample ballot. Of course, a percentage of the population would stay away from these creeps and would not want to be associated with them in any way but the sad fact is a lot of the voters would accept the bribes out of sheer desperation. I made a vow never to participate in ANY election because no candidate will ever be good enough or have the right intentions. That's how hopeless the situation was.

Then came the 2010 elections and there was one candidate who stood out from all the rest. A candidate whose platform did not revolve around empty promises. The man had a vision, he knew that temporary remedies will not alleviate the country's economic situation. He had foresight, he knew that things are not going to be easy but he knew that the only way to help people is to attack the root cause of the country's issues. I found myself regretting the decision I made early on, I wished so badly that I was a registered voter so I can support him. Gibo Teodoro has awakened my passion for change. He made me believe that it's not as hopeless as I thought it was. After all, there are people like him who has something else to offer other than the traditional way of running the country.

He did not bring celebrities to dance and sing in front of the populace. He did not give out election paraphernalia just to please people. He did not ask the country's biggest stars to campaign for him. He went on to present his plans for the Philippines in debates, universities and other venues where people would hear what he has to offer. He did not engage in mudslinging, did not utter any negative comment about any of his opponents when he had every opportunity to do so.

It's just so sad that this country is not yet ready for a new breed of leaders. Filipinos still look at elections as a popularity contest. Even worse, no one wants to admit that they made a mistake in choosing the wrong people to lead this sinking ship. They say that we should be thankful to Cory for the freedom we enjoy today. But I want to know, where has that freedom taken us? What good has EDSA 1 done for this nation? Or EDSA 2? Or EDSA 3?

From thefreedictionary.com

Circus - a frenetic disorganized (and often comic) disturbance suggestive of a large public entertainment

What scares me is suffering the consequences of a decision I did not make. The Philippines is now officially a circus in the truest sense of the word. I don't want to be a part of it.




Saturday, April 24, 2010

Dysphoria

It's Saturday night. I'm in bed with the computer. What's wrong with this picture? I wonder...

I don't really know what's wrong with me these days. I have been extremely depressed, thinking about a lot of stuff that are so damaging to my sanity. Discontentment is the root of unhappiness. I know there are a lot of things that I should be thankful for. Yet, why do I feel so inadequate? Maybe I should list down the things that I should be grateful for. Hmmm.... Let's give it a shot and see if it will make me feel better.
  1. My husband. Sure, he's not perfect but I could never ask for anyone better. He's not traditionally sweet, in fact he is the most pragmatic person I know so he's never the type to send flowers out of the blue. The last time he did that was 4 years ago. Trouble is, flowers droop in a matter of hours so I don't get too excited about those anymore. He gives me a lot of stuff, though. He cooks my favorite food (then wonders out loud why I don't lose weight), holds my hand for no reason and he's such a konsentidor to my crazy ideas. No one else can take his place in my life.

  2. Chin-chin. She is the cutest thing and she's also very smart. Young as she is, she already shows so much potential. She always finds ways to outwit me. I am so proud of her because she seems to love numbers. She's counting all the time and she seems so amazed by arithmetic (!). We all know I suck at math so this should be very interesting.

  3. Mama. Mama always knows where to find things. She has a talent for having everything that everyone needs. She bring a humongous tote to work everyday and sometimes I get so pissed at her for constantly digging into her bag but I love her for always bringing stuff she thinks people might ask for. She's always been so selfless when it comes to us, her kids. I would never know what to do without her .

  4. I have a job. Sure it's not my dream job. I mean, let's be realistic. Nobody wants to build a career in the call center. But if anything, it pays the bills. It puts food on the table. With the fiscal crisis affecting nearly everyone, I am still lucky for having a job.

  5. Shoes. I am so glad I can still afford to buy a new pair every now and then. I loooove shoes! Even if none of my clothes fit well because of my ballooning weight, wearing the right shoes gives me a confidence boost.
Okay, I may not be very ecstatic right now but I have to say, writing about things I'm grateful for makes me feel lucky to be alive. Hahaha! Back to reality tomorrow...

Wednesday, April 21, 2010

This is me

Hi! I'm Anna and I'm not an alcoholic. Far from it, actually.

I'm 27 years old. Mommy of a vivacious 5-year old girl. Married to my college sweetheart, the love of my life.

I have recently tried to quit smoking.

I have very low tolerance for alcohol that's why drinking is not my idea of fun.

I also have a shopping problem. Just ask my husband.

Shoes. I wish I could buy a pair ever single day.

Credit cards. I wish there's one with no credit limit and no bills. Ha! Dream on.

Food. It's a love-hate relationship.

Movies. I'm a sucker for feel-good movies. I don't mind watching stuff I've seen a million times. As long as it gives me warm fuzzies, bring it on.

Music. 90s all the way.

Make-up. A girl can never have enough. Yes, I am a junkie.

Blog-a-bing

I was trying to access my space in windows live but for some weird reason, I keep getting an error message. Call Tech Support? Nah... I probably shouldn't. Let's just say that I'm not at the right place and this is not the right time to update my blog. What the hell...

Since I'm having technical issues with the other site, I decided to create a new one. Maybe I'll make this my permanent home. With all the craziness surrounding me everday, I need a space where I can let it all out.